lets discuss about zodiac..

as a normal girl, its the MUST read section in magazines..

but sometimes.. im a lil' bit confuse..

these are the reasons..
1. sebagai orang yg lahir tgl 22 september, kadang gw masuk bintang virgo tapi kadang gw msk ke libra..
yup, tanggal lahir gw merupakan batas antara virgo dan libra..

2. untuk pembawaan karakter sendiri..
heemmm... it will be a big lie, kalo gw bilang gw feminim.. boleh jadi rambut gw panjang tergerai dan kadang2 terlihat memakai rok..
tapi.. gw kl ngomong nyablak, aga2 suka melakukan kekerasan juga, dan sifat2 sikap2 lain yang jaaauuuhhh bgt dr feminim..
padahal, virgo kan lambangnya wanita anggun gmn gitu..

nah kl karakter libra...
hemm.. lambangnya timbangan, jadi..
bisa dibilang, orangnya bakal banyak pertimbangan..
nah, yg ini malah rada2 gw banget...
gw tuh kadang kelamaan & kebanyakan mikir..
sampe2 ada yg bilang "u're thinking too much"
=(

well, anyway..
gw cuma mau berbagi cerita aja..
bukan topik berat untuk di baca.. dan tumben2an ga ada topik cinta2an juga..
=P

jadi.. apa bintangmu??

http://sejuta-mp3.com/h/heydi-diana/heidy-diana-bintangku-bintangmu/

uuu.. dont assume anything about the title..
its a title from a book actually. IMO, this book is too good to be true..

tadinya buku ini ya cuma sekedar 'buku' aja bt gw..
sampe ada bagian di buku ini, dimana terdapat kalimat
"i will never forget the day when we fell in love"

its making me turn-on the "flash back" mode...
i strongly believe, that i did fall in love in my past..
(no need to know how many time ya..) ^_*

dan..
i cant remember!!
*blank*
*panic*
how come i cant remember the day when i fell in love??!!!

i remember the person of course..
but until i type this blog, i still cant remember the day.. not just the day, even the moment that trigger the "i love u" words to came out..
crap!!

is it because, maybe.. i never did?

is it good or bad, to forget about something that we might had??

then, when i continue to read the book (and still trying hard to remember this thing)..
i found the answer..

MY answer actually..
and the answer is,
i dont remember when i fell in love with u, all i can remember is i do love u..

"i just love u"

and thats about it...

i dont love anyone because they loves me back..
i dont love anyone because they able to give me this and give me that..
i dont love anyone because he is physically attractive hot looking guy..

i do love someone because i just do..
no reason, no explanation, no justification..

nothing, but this feeling inside..

so...

have you ever been in love??

http://www.lyrics007.com/Celine%20Dion%20Lyrics/Have%20You%20Ever%20Been%20In%20Love%20Lyrics.html

yup, thats the new nickname for u..

wonder what are u doing rite now..
is it only me whos waiting to see u online??

i know its kinda strange, how this feeling came..
but the strangest thing is.. how its grow so fast to be this strong..

i dont give a damn what people thinking..
i just starting to like u..
and maybe like we both said.. its only temporary feeling..

but stupid me!
i think im to excited to finally felt this kinda feeling again..

pretty much u know about my past.. about "those matters"
i got a lil' bit traumatic.. emm.. ok a lil' big traumatic maybe more correct.. =P

but suddenly u came, and suddenly this thing called "chemistry" came out of nowhere..
its funny, its shocking and sadly.. its sad also..
because somehow..
"i still feel it"

well, my fault i know to brought up this issue so fast..
when we said we want to take things slowly..

oh God.. i cant imagine my face if we meet..
i think it will be like a boiled crab!!
*LOL

but hey, i thank u for ur present in my life..
i know its kinda short notice for u to come & go..

but at least, u made me realize that im not numb..
and this feeling is not dumb..

one more important thing, please do like urself..
ure a good man..
*trust me*

hemm.. thinking hard what song should i give for this blog...
and i still dunno the right song..
=(

maybe if somehow u read this blog, u can help find a good song for it..


last but not least..

ttyl :)


*nb
i think i found a good song..
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jamesmorrison/yougivemesomething.html

what do u think??

Dear friends,

On July 3rd 2010, we had our convo..
ready or not.. it will take us to different level of life..
for me personally, i have no reason to go back to Malaysia anymore..
sad, im fallin love with the country already..
but it was u guys that made my days..

some of u might know, that i hate the word "goodbye",
so i will just say "Hasta Manana"

Hasta manana tiqa..
i really have lot of things to say bout u.. but i will make this page full if im doin it.. so i just wanna say.. "Thank you".. thanks for everything, thanks for being normal when im not, thanks for being so understanding when i choose the "not so good" way, thanks for not judging me for it.. thanks darling.. hope that i can be a good friend for u too.. *smooch*

Hasta manana booby..
hem, u.. what can i say.. u made my life like a roller coaster.. the one who convinced me to study in Binary (damn to ariel also), but thanks God u gave me place to stay.. u really taught me lot of things and somehow, i thank u for that..
keep doin what u're dreamin on.. and perhaps someday we finally see ur name reach out to the sky..

Hasta manana ade..
i know that u're younger than me.. but sometimes ure so much mature than me.. i envy ur ability to think so damn logically.. i wish i have that talent a bit.. but thank u for always share that particular talent with me.. i really need it.. =P

Hasta manana adi..
uncle adi.. the victim of my slipper.. hahaha.. thanks for ur internet connectivity when we were in 3rd floor.. it did help for my love relationship.. =P
and thanks for the promise.. "janji pizza adi" yes.. i will remember to eat veggie.. *hueks* =P

not forget to mention,
Amdani Chandra, Jocky Marciano, and Ariel Al-Muttaqin...
where ever u are rite now.. whatever u do.. best of luck to u guys..

and i also have my personal things that i left in Malaysia..

Hasta manana purple sky,
u know, somehow when i see u.. i always feel so peaceful.. ur present at 7am.. yes, i will miss that.. "langit unguku pada jam tujuh"

Hasta manana mba2 lada & ibu es kelapa..
sorry, i just cant tell the truth to u all.. things are different now.. but one thing that remain the same.. i do like u all..

Hasta Manana 3rd floor
here, i saw the purple sky for the 1st time.. lot of things happened.. from the sparkling juice until 2 pans successfully burnt by adi.. thank u guys.. for being good housemates...

Hasta Manana conversation with 3 doors
how?? are we ready to start the conversation again?? are we already achieve some of our dreams?? hopefully yes, or maybe if its no.. we're going there and will be arriving soon.. =)

Hasta manana 4th floor
from the bee's tragedy until the surprise party.. laugh, tear, surprise and lot of things we shared.. =)

Hasta manana My Castle
i dont know how u are rite now.. but the memories remain..

well, still got plenty of people, places and memories that i want to share..
but this blog got character limitation i think..
so, allow me to finish this blog rite now..
with lot of thanks to
juba, nisa, nike, ziko, angie, ben, privena, amjad, thanesh, arafat, zulian, and ahmed..


Hasta Manana all..


http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/vitaminc/graduationfriendsforever.html

another train was passing me by..
left me all alone in the station..

but i wont blame it to them..
they have the right to move on..
when i just stood there and wondering..

yes, wondering..

wondering about the old time train..

it makes me questioning all of the things..
it makes me afraid to take new direction..

just thinking, is it right?
is it gonna be good?
is it gonna end again?
then, i waste my time by thinking too much..

maybe i should start to stop thinking about how it might end..
because perhaps, it wont end..

well, i hope another train is coming my way..
im getting tired sitting all alone in this station..
its really getting colder here..

but still, i wont pick up any train..
only the train with similar final destination worth my ride..

and i know, theres price to pay with this decision..

some trains will passing through and maybe make the dust flying to my eyes..
but i will just wipe it away and smile..
because i know, God have a better plan..
and i will find a way back to my destined train..

=)

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hugh_grant/way_back_into_love.html

flashback aja ke blog2 gw mengenai bromo:

Blog yg pertama, tentang awal mula knp gw mau ke bromo:
http://songsinmylife-butterfly.blogspot.com/2009/11/wonder-by-wonder.html

Blog yg kedua, tentang gimana gw jadiin blog pertama sbg salah satu resolusi 2010 gw:
http://songsinmylife-butterfly.blogspot.com/2009/12/2010s-resolutions.html

So, lets get started..

Gunung, hemh.. kata itu emang ga bikin gw seseneng kl gw denger kata "pantai"..
tapi bayangan yg ada, pasti itu tempat yg tenang untuk jiwa yg lelah..
hahahaha.. *lebay

anyway, selama ini kl denger gunung.. ingatan gw mengarah mostly ke puncak..
apalagi krn ada lagunya "naik2 ke puncak gunung" .. mangkinan bikin gw bersugesti begitu..

but thanks to my mom..
she introduced me to other mountain.. and its called BROMO..


yang terkenal sm sunrise-nya...


Sebetulnya perjalanan ini ga terlalu direncanakan dgn matang..
emang niat, someday ajak pergi mama kesini.. tapi ga nyangka aja, kl niat itu secepat ini dikabulin.. =)

Pas April mama ulang tahun, gw rasa pas juga aja bt gw kasih kado ini..

Semua serba pas.. pas ada waktu (cuti 7 hari), pas mama ga sibuk (cancel meeting2), pas gaji naik (big grin), dan pas dpt arisan (bigger grin) =D

berangkat dari jakarta dgn 1st flight ke malang.. Dan melanjutkan perjalan ke bromo dgn mobil pada jam 12 pagi...
yes, u read it right.. 12am!!
people said it is the best time to go, since we will InsyaAllah arrive Bromo at 3am..

dengan mobil kijang yg ga da AC, gw pun pergi ke bromo..
sampe di bromo, kita lanjutkan petualangan dengan naik hardtop..
man!! i like this car a lot!! mau punya 1 ah ntar... =)

dr tempat transit tadi, kita mulai perjalanan membelah gunung.. walau di pinggir jalan itu jurang & jam br menunjuk pukul 3 pagi, ada 1 rasa yg susah saya hindari!!
*saya mengantuk* jadilah dgn kepercayaan penuh kepada Pak Supir.. saya pun tertidur!! hahahaha.. ibu gw ampe geleng2 ga percaya anaknya bs tidur segampang ini dlm situasi begini.. what can i say? im so sleepy.. =D

sampe2 di penanjakan, kita harus jalan.. Ough!! dgn suhu dingin dan bule2 yg jg cool.. saya pasrah aja pas jalan..
Mama udah mau kalah sebelum berperang krn ngeliat jalannya nanjak.. sampe2 ngeluarin jurus "jalan mundur" biar lebih enteng nanjaknya..
*believe me.. it didnt work*




And here they are.. the sunrise.. and my sun...


setelah foto2 bernarsis diri ria.. saatnya kembali ke bawah gunung.. sebelum itu, kita ngelewatin yg di sebut "lautan pasir" untuk ngeliat "kawah bromo"..

i need to climbed 252 stairs to see this crater!! alone.. my mom said "nope, i wont do it.. i just wait for u here.." dan di saat gw balik dr PP 504 tangga.. ibuku tercinta lg sibuk minum nescafe anget sm ngemil biskuit.. -__-"

tapi habis itu mukanya berubah jadi pucat.. saat dia teringat kita harus balik ke mobil naik kuda.. hahahahaha.. its so funny.. we just picked the wrong horse.. with tiny body like us, we choose the big horses..


Dan begitulah, sehabis memanjat tangga & berkuda & kembali mengendarai hardtop yg sama.. selesailah petualangan kami di Gunung Bromo..

Bersyukur bisa ngeliat salah satu kebesaran Tuhan.. Subhanallah...

Dan bersyukur bisa mewujudkan apa yg Daddy mau.. ajak Mama ke Bromo..

well, anyway...
happy birthday Mom..
hope u like ur present as much as i like to gave it to u..
and yes, u are one of my "Wonder by Wonder"
xoxoxoxo


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sebetulnya sih simpel aja ide dr blog yg 1 ini..

saat sedang jalan2 bersama teman2, tiba2 ntah knp topik pembicaraan berubah ke arah "pernikahan"

gw yg notabene merasa amat S.I.A.P untuk menikah ngerasa ga khawatir berbicara ttg masalah ini, sampailah di 1 bagian dimana 1 teman menanyakan 1 pertanyaan.

"knp sih elo mau nikah?"

sound simple, dan temen2 gw pun mulai menjawab satu persatu...

Teman 1: karena gw mau menyempurnakan agama.. (gw: wow.. keren bgt jawabannya..)

Teman 2: soalnya gw pengen punya anak banyak... (gw: hahaha... simple tapi kena jawabannya)

Teman 3: karena gw mau mapan, gw beda dari lelaki kebanyakan yg milih untuk kaya dulu baru cari istri. gw malah mau punya istri dulu, biar gw lebih usaha bt jadi mapan.. (gw: wuis.. jauh sekali pemikirannya...)

Teman 4: gw mau tenang! (gw: okeh, malem itu elo berhasil bikin gw 'amaze' sm lo..)

giliran gw: emmm.... 'BLANK!!' akhirnya gw jawab.. gw ga tau knp gw mau nikah, yg gw tau, gw mau nikah.. (gw lg: jawaban macam apa kaya gitu??)

Gw berasa ketampar!!!

selama ini gw berkoar-koar pengen nikah muda dsb...
tapi pas di tanya alasannya kenapa, gw ga bisa ngasih jawaban...

WTF!

akhirnya gw ngehabisin malam itu bt berfikir...

dulu, pas punya pasangan gw tau knp gw mau nikah.. apa masih jawaban itu yg gw rasa skrg??

-------------------------------flash back-------------------------------

dulu pas gw kecil gw jg ga tau knp gw pgn nikah muda..

pas dulu udah punya pasangan..

gw pengen nikah muda krn gw ga mau buang waktu, gw ga tau umur gw atau umur pasangan gw sampe berapa..

gw pengen cepet2 bisa bakti & bahagia-in dia dengan semua cara indah yg halal..

gw pengen bener2 serius tentang percintaan...

gw pengen nikah, di saat gw yakin dia bisa jadi ayah & Imam yg baik bt gw dan anak2 kita nantinya..

gw pengen nikah, di saat gw ngerasa senyuman dia berarti bt gw dan air mata dia terlalu berharga bt netes krn sedih ttg gw...

gw pengen nikah, di saat gw percaya bahwa gw yakin gw bisa ngadepin dunia & seisinya kl ada dia di sisi gw...

its me & u against the world..


tapi itu dulu,
sekarang, gw ga yakin..
apa bener gw berani nikah?

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