seperti biasa, review buku lagi..
kali ini, itu judulnya.. "my two lovers" by Safrina Siregar

buat gw sih ok bukunya, walaupun ending-nya gantung..
tapi ada 1 hal yg gw suka bgt di dalam buku ini, puisi yg di halaman awal..

Mulai Hari Ini, Kita Jalan Sendiri-sendiri

Mulai hari ini,
kita jalan sendiri-sendiri.
Hidupmu dan aku biar pisah sampai di sini.

Maaf, waktu untuk mencintaimu telah usai.
Aku telah berusaha menempati satu ruang dalam hatimu.
Dan kali ini aku setuju denganmu.
Kau memang tak pantas untukku.
Kau berubah.
Bukan, mungkin aku yang berubah.
Waktu telah mengubah aku, seperti yang kau bilang... semuanya tak sama lagi.

Maaf, aku menghabiskan waktumu, waktuku, dan waktu kita... menganggap apa yang ada itu berharga.
Menghabiskan waktu kita menyamakan kita kembali.
Nyatanya, semua hanyalah bungkusan kepura-puraan.

Aku sudah lelah. Bukan, bukan aku menyerah dengan cinta aku.
Kuhanya memberi jalan untuk sebuah kepastian... terutama untukku.
Sekarang waktuku... meyakini diriku... tak ada yang salah di aku.
Aku dulu hanya terlalu buta untuk melihat kenyataan ini.

Bila kau bertemuku lagi, lepaskan kepura-puraanmu. Aku benci.
Mulai hari ini, kita jalan sendiri-sendiri.

(Nahria Medina Marzuki - www.yayajanuary.blogspot.com)

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/usher/separated.html

Yup that is his famous nickname..
the name of a man that i love more than any men in this world or hereafter...

sometimes people called him bintoro, bambang, uncle bien, and even peggy
(i always laugh everytime someone called him "peggy"). =D

His real name was
"Bagus Bintoro Bambang Pagianto Soedono Widjanarto"
its a long name indeed
(i need to ask my mom since i also dont remember it, yet)
=P

after all, its maybe because i simply called him "Daddy"

why this blog is about him?? well, today he supposed to be a 57 years old man..

i wanted so bad to meet him directly..
to be able to say "happy birthday Dad"
to be able to give something special that he want..
to be able to hug him so tight and kiss him so gentle...
and to be able to see him smiling back at me..

at least, if i can't see him..
i want to be able to call him, and hear his voice...
or if im running out of credit, i can simply send him sms, and 100% guarantee he will call me back... *no doubt

but thats just what i want...
i know i cant do that anymore, at least not now..
and i accept it, since i know he got more happiness in his "world" now...
and i also know, that he know what i wanted to do...

today, i just met him in his final house on earth...
without any flower to be pour since i was racing with the time..

i just can send him prayer..
hope that God will forgive him, and give him all the good things a moeslem can get in heaven..

yes, today i visited his grave...

God, please send him tons of love from his family and friends.
who miss him so much.
who miss all the laughter and joy he brings.

please God, give him Your warmest hug.

until the time come, i can finally hug him again...

miss u Dad, Love u more.
Happy birthday.

-your daughter-
Adjeng Bintoro

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