May 11th 2012,


Dear Dad,

Cant imagine, 11 years has passed.. cant imagine, that im still standing here trying to be strong without you around..
People says, we should let go of someone since God has a better plan.
I do believe with the words..
I do pray for God gave you the greatest place on God's side..

But can you understand the feeling of lost that i have been through?

Sometimes i asked myself "How far is heaven?"

Daddy, maybe one of the saddest thing is not the 'let go' part..
The saddest thing for me is, when i know that i made mistake and you watch that from up above and i cannot explain my justification in front of you.. and you cannot give me the wisdom words like any father will do..
The saddest thing for me is, when i know both of us want to do it.. But we just cant..
Believe me Dad, despite all the bad things that i did.. i will always try to be your sweet lil' girl..

You know, sometimes me and mostly with Mom.. we talked bout you.
How life would be if you still around..
i personally think, that you will beat up all the guys that make me cry :D
or you will tell me to leave them earlier, so i wont need to cry..

oh Dad, im waiting for Mom rite now to come home.. so we both can visit your last home on earth..
before today, i feel there were a lot of things that i want to write.. that i want to express..
but now, im so speechless..

only this heart beat that make me realize that im still alive & im missing you every beat of it..
i surely do..

Dad, be happy in the other world..
Dont you worry about us, we are doing fine here..
and we keep you in our heart..
No matter what things happen, we will face it all as a family..

i will try to laugh even in the darkest hour, like you always make me did..
i will try to be grateful, like you always taught me..
and i will always and always missing you..

Until we meet again! Be good up there will you..

Love you Dad! Miss you even more!

With all the love,
Adjeng Bintoro


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