haa...
today is my birthday...
Happy birthday to me...

honestly feel that it was so different compare with my last birthday...

the same thing is, im still surrounded by people who loves me and i love them more...

start this month with a car accident was not a good sign, a week after that my uncle went a surgery...with all this things going on in my head, i dont need another thing to think..

but hey, my heart also gives me another things to think...

thank u heart...

my brain and my heart are fully occupied...
until i reach my point when i feel so tired with all of this...
im losing my will to fight... "hampir habis dayaku" ....
im tired convince myself that im going to be ok...
thanks God, Jade can always make me laugh...love u Jade...

and i think now im starting to see the "blessing in disguise" as my sister said...

- now i feel relieve, still empty inside but i know i must 'touch' the pain to heal the pain...ouch...
- my uncle is getting better, love u...
- now i have a job...yipie...even though i dont have any idea about my job, but im on my way to understand it, yeah miller... u got me so confused...
- now i start to 'let myself to be free'

hem and the song of the day will be from mutya buena...real girl...
coz that just who i am...
a real girl, live in a real world, with the plus minus in me...

this is the link from azlyrics : azlyrics.com/lyrics/mutyabuena/realgirl.html